ON the wings of winds, I would fly straight to your heart

And make myself a nest…..of romance

A hide out from the world……

And no you won’t be able to shut the doors…ever

Coz before you realize, I have already walked in……

And made myself home….

ON the wings of wind, I’ll come and take you away….

And no you won’t be able to hide,

Coz before you realize, you have already walked a mile

Holding my hand in yours……

As they are passing by

Things won’t be the same again

No matter how hard we try

As they slipped away……..

These moments are all we’ll have

We won’t again get these times

To just sis and chat..

May be you won’t remember

When you see my down the lane

I’ll just be another face

Once gone never will be back

There won’t be another me

In your life, but

People will take place

And you’ll feel everything’s fine

The castles that we made

Together with our thoughts, will

Just be silly dreams

As we get busy in life’s plot

The careless laughs will be lost in

Mindless worries

The future will be coming

As the past buries

But still at times, when we sit back

We’ll smile at the silly jokes we crack…..

The fights would bring back the memories

When we acted like jerks

These times will be cherished as life perks

So as we move on, with our lives

And someday you’re down

You’ve still got somebody

On whom you can count…….

These times will live on…….

Treasured in our heart,

no matter how many turns come

And from where we start…..

Far away into those stars

Take my soul, coz it’s only yours

And lets not look back again to the shores

And our hearts will be lost, in the midst of this sea

And we will be lost in each other

For the rest of time being

Only love will exist, where ever we go

I promise we will cherish togetherness

No matter which boat we row

You have seen inside my heart

And I have seen yours

We know each other like

Nobody knows

So hold my hand, and take me far

Take me far into those stars

You have the power to hurt me

Like nobody can

I know you love me, much more than them

I have cried for you, with you out into the night

I know this can’t be wrong, coz in my heart

I know its right

You have touched my heart, in some strange way

I’ll be only yours, no matter how far away

So hold my hand, before it’s too late

Take me far away, far away

Into those stars

Where your love will reside…….forever

In my heart………………

I thought of parting ways

And going to our respective place

I asked you, not to look back

But move as fast as, away

I told you, I am done with this

It’s my life and that’s the way I like it

You went away…..without asking why?

You went away…..and I thought I won’t cry

And I didn’t, I didn’t cried

All those days, when I missed you

All those days when I felt all emptied

Like a hollow something, waiting to be filled in

Like a bird to be set free………..

Kept consoling myself, I don’t need you

Kept telling myself, I don’t care

When inside I was getting tore in pieces

When inside I am dying to get your sight

I walked down the street, and my eyes search

For your presence

Now that you are not here, I realized

There’s nothing that could fill in your absence

And there I got your sight, and

I saw you happy with your life

May be you have moved on, and

I am still stuck when you are not here to hold on

And then you look me into the eyes…………………..

And I know you still love me

But there’s no hope you see

And I realized what a fool I have been………….

And I lost the only love I ever had!!!!!

A loser

Many a times you will find me

Failed in life’s test

Many a times you will find me

As not a perfect picture

Many a times you will find me

Not as good as always

Many a times you will find me

Not as beautiful as always

Many a times you will find me

Not the same as always

I will not be the one, you always loved

I will not be the one, you always wanted

Many a times you will find me

Not special but as normal as anybody else

Not always good, not always perfect

Not always what you dreamt of?

Only in these times, it will be your test

Only in these times, if stand beside me

Without asking to prove my best

Only if we accept each other as we are

Then only we are allowed, in each other’s life

FOREVER………………………………………………..

the day will arrive

when hand in hand

they will reunite……………

The misery will end

the closeness reside

time has come to stay

side by side

The tears they shed

the sacrifice they cried

are at last going to get paid

by the almighty

That day would be beautiful

as they will reunite

the stars will dance at their

union whole night

Flowers will bloom as their

love will be embraced

in their dead souls

once again life will be gained

Nothing would be important

but their loving complaints

nothing would be given time

but the explanation, they will explain

Alas! At last they will be happy

they will be secure

in each other’s arm that

are so much yours

At last their smiles

will reach their eyes

at last they will feel, everything’s all right

when they will hold, each other tight

The wait would end and

the day will arrive

when hand in hand

they will reunite……………

So many came and went from this way

But I am still standing there

Looking at the turn where you left away

And I am still……………………………..waiting for you

Looks like you don’t remember me anymore

Because now a days

I don’t feel you in the breeze of sea shore

And I am still……………………………………………waiting for you

You gave me so much happiness

When we were together

We held each other’s hand through the bad times altogether

And I am still……………………………waiting for you

Please come back, I am tired too much

I am emotionally shattered

Come back and prove my mind wrong

That says “you are gone”

Come back and put the pieces of my heart together

That has broken without you here

And I am still…………………..waiting for you

I never asked you

Why you left me alone??

Because I always thought

You would come back to me explaining

What went wrong??

And I am still…………………….waiting for you

And I will wait for you

Till the last breathe of my life

And I will wait for you

Till I am alive

You will find me standing

At the same place where you left me

And I am still………………………….waiting for you

I play my game, and I play it so well
Nobody seem to know I cheated
They are mesmerized by the way I play

I hold a mask over my face, and I hold it so well
Nobody seem to know the real me
They are busy praising the fake

I tell everyone what they want to hear, and I say it so well
Nobody seem to bother for the truth
They are busy feeling happy about what I said

I face bad times, and I do cry
But I don’t tell them when, where and why?
Because I don’t find them worth my share

So you think I am bad??
Oh!! Please you think I asked for your opinion
Or do you think I even care

I am ten folds better then what you are
Because at least I accept this is me
And you

You will stand in front of mirror everyday
And would be so afraid when you will
See your naked soul someday!!

We aren’t happy with the room though, infrastructure wise firstly coz we are paying a huge sum of amount for a small two bed room set and secondly coz we don’t like the landlords…phewww, but gotta adjust for at least one month, we have paid advance no…

About 11 o’ clock we got free from all the cleaning, and our stomachs was demanding food………and the bell rang at that precise moment and believe me when I say, that I jumped towards the door (empty stomach for me is a bad thing!!!!!) and was relieved to see food at the door.

The food was quite good going by the standards of Tiffin centers.

With our stomachs full and sleep lurking on our eyes, we had a good sound sleep for about one hour or so not much……

Definitely we can not be dependent on two time Tiffin, it’s a big long twenty four hours day. So the evening began with a visit to provision store which unfortunately was closed, so we roamed for a while in the market and from a small shop bought simple things a student could buy, two minute noodles, bread and butter.

If you ask me about the locality we are living in, I am pretty happy about it. It’s nice, clean, everything with in reach and a beautiful garden close by, couldn’t have asked for more.

But still home is home, where you could throw away things…..mom will shout at you but eventually she’ll clean it, where food will come whenever you want without moving a muscle, where your sister was Eveready to go to the market to buy your stuff……where dad would buy all the things you want.

Suddenly all the responsibilities are dropped on your shoulders, and without making much noise you will do all.

I guess this is gonna be my schedule for coming two years………..let’s see what learning experience this journey holds for me……..

29/07.09
Enter Ajmer: and the first impression I got was a city too crowded for its small lanes, and being not such a big fan of crowded places i wasn’t smitten by the place. but you can hardly expect a 6 lane highway, as the city was build in the 7th century.
From the station it’s a fifteen minutes ride to the Ajmer Sharif Dargah…..and not being rude or anything but the xperience wasn’t very good. Considering the fact that the Dargah is jostled by lot and lots of people…..you won’t get two minute of peaceful contact with the God……but the amzing thing about even this situation was, that seeing the crowd there you will never be able to guess that this was the same place which went through a series of bomb blasts.
You’ll clearly see a major factor there, that is God synonym to money…..not that i have anything against money being given for god, it’s the way the money will be asked that bothers me…..before anything else, even before you have closed your eyes to rememebr god, the first thing to be asked will be money……….and that didn’t went very well in my impression book. So all in all, i was happy that i had a visit to the Dargah, but i wasn’t too happy with the way things run over there. One of the many regret sthat i had was the fact that the Fort of Prithviraj Chouhan is no more in the condition that i could see, for someone who is hugely intrested in the history of Prithviraj Chouhan, this was a set back…..

Enter Pushkar: well i was happy, that i could breathe fresh air, it’s a forty minute drive from Ajmer to Pushkar, not a very long journey……there’s a huge history chapter behind the Brahma Temple there (that’s the only temple pf Brahma in the world) and its quite interesting. Though visiting pushkar in November is a better idea.
Even pushkar is not far behind when it comes to money in the name of God, i guess its a million dollor industry running there and only god knows, how much money actually goes where its should actually go.
All in all, it was a good experience…..though not mesmerizing…..and may be i’ll remember ajmer for all wrong reasons rather than right.
but whatever………there is one things i am so sure of …nothing sweet then Home sweet home